What if

What if you die first and I continue to live?

What if I don't love you?

Bosanlah. X-years and counting sometimes you are not counting something worth it.

What if it is so hard to be happy when you are around?

I don't really like your either. 

I wish I don't have to stay. 

Is this a come-back?

 Assalamualaikum.

Setelah semakin berusia, saya telah menjadi sopan (sedikit), semoga boleh diperbaiki. :p

The story is,

One day, I went for our detox-coffee session, when The Usual Suspects (namely Ain, Hajar and Fik) talked about our young era. Kau. Tua sangat eh.

Er approaching 40-s makes me feel old however I want to feel young though.

We reached the session when suddenly my blog came across the conversation and we ran through my old (read: tua bangka) posts... and when we read them, some questions were then answered in these years. How time flies.

Alhamdulillah, life has taught me alot and will need to learn more, insyaAllah.

One day, when I am no longer here, you can scroll to a tiny part of my life that I cherished: some portions contain you, all praise to Allah. 

Let's see if I can continue writing.

My current desktop background. FYI. :p

Kbye.

wink wink ~.^

SaidaMj 

TK stands for Terima Kasih

Hello everyone in TK. Here goes my appreciation post, I couldn't post it to my socmed acc because I am pemalu type of lady [ughh].

1. IZWAN

Mr Phamacist of the year, my neighbour. Keep on beramal jariah, in case someone ngepaw you at Family Mart in the future, pls be happy. Haha. And, be kind to your neighbour, including the big brother from Family Mart.

2. Kaklin

Thank you for your mom's rendang and sambal udang, actually I kept a secret that I felt like crying when I ate your rendang during raya eve. Jangan garang2 selalu yeeeeerrrr. ✌️

3. Akma

Be happppy Akma, untuk breastfeeding future. Hihi. And, you are veryyy generous but make sure don't waste the food you buy. Jangan Nakalllll Eeaaaa. 😋

4. Mardhiah Aladawiah

This lady has taught me kemahiran hidup. How to cook ayam masak lemak and what to do when your car screams, it just needs new bearing. Nanti makan matcha tu ingat sikit kat RJ pun ada Family Mart. 😌

5. Fatin Farhana

My concert gang, weeeeeee I am amazzzzed with your talent. We will have another concert for sure. Tengtengtengtengtengtengtengteng we were both young when I first saw youuu... 

6. Siti FY

Siti situ sana sini, you go girl with your healthy lifestyle but please don't over do it. Solehah tau dak ni dia rajin puasa sunat wehh alhamdulillah. Keep it up! 

7. Putri Sahjat

My geng surau, thank u for being my jemaah I adore you. Rajin buat plano, don't forget to arrange my plano just now, okay. 

Overall I just cannot thank you enough, all of you, alhamdulillah that we crossed path. 

I am sorry on everything I did wrong and.. 

my good bye simply means see you again. 

Adios. 

Wink ~. ^

My Lovely Daughter

Assalamualaikum

Introducing our latest product

 

A lovely baby girl named Maryam Anna Humyra bt Muhammad Izzat

Alhamdulillah

wink wink

Good bye 2017

Hello Dusty-bloggie

I am giving a new nick name for this page "Dusty-bloggie" or when I am too lazy in future I will just call you DB

That is the fate for a blog
Please accept that my dear DB

Btw
Tomorrow will be a new start for my ageing life - I will be 31 OMG - 
not my birthday actually it's just the year 

Looking back for this 2017
Despite there were hiccups here and there
Life has been great alhamdulillah

Lets pray for a better year and life forward
I foresee myself as a busier momma in 2018 that I will have my 3rd baby pop-out in early February and will have to register my PhD in April hopefully
My eldest baby Kiriz will go to school - feel old enough my boy is growing bigger
My 2nd baby Wildan - I pray that he can bear longer with every blood transfusion and start his chelation smoothly

And please God give me more money hihihi
Ameen

wink

Hello Dusty Bloggie

Assalamualaikum

I am 32 weeks pregnant with my third pregnancy yippie

I feel like my talent to write a blog post has gone

It feels like I have nothing to scribble



Hihi

I just want to make sure that my blog will not die


However

I am happy

Ok daaa

Till I write again

wink

Faded

Years have passed and the only thing I can make the percentage better is my body fat. :(

Midlife crisis is seriously exist, it takes me to the whole new arena of life, which is misery.

If I were to compare my life before these 5 years, it would be a complete set of contrast in my usual state. Happiness was my middle name before, but now I ought to remind myself to be happy.

My previous-self is sometimes fading, too overwhelmed with sadness sometimes despite my look is almost as homogenous as before.

Faded. I hope I will go before you.